I've come along way since i've turned 30. allot has happened to me. good and bad. i feel i've grown artistically but, on the flip side i feel i've come to some horrible realizations. i'm afraid of success and failure. that may be kinda hard to understand. i have trouble with it myself. if i have sucess, then i'm afraid i won't have it very long so i don't get to enjoy it as much as next next person might. if i fail, then it just fuels my doubts when i do suceed. wierd i know.
i've made my art reputation on drawing stuff from photographs. as much as it takes talent to have an eye for composition and layout. i can't really call myself an actual artist. someone that can make something from scratch without reference or much of one. i love to draw comic book characters. i grew up wanting to be a comic book illustrator. i look back on stuff now and realize that i'm just a mish-mash of other people's style. nothing of my own. my favorite quote when it comes to art is simply this... "An essential aspect of creativity is not being afraid to fail." i've never heard the truth spoken so loud and clear in my opinion.
i'm at a wierd crossroads with my artistic life. the main thing that artists want in my opinion, is respect for what they do. it's awesome to get compliments from people. but, it means so much more when you get complimented by your peers. the average person (i mean artistically) is always amazed to see someone do something they can't or don't want to do. i do it too to people who possess gifts i don't. i try to enjoy the creative process but, i have a drive and stubborness to be the best at what i do. i stay humble to stay focused. i've seen all sorts of artistic people in my life from the humble to the down right arrogant. design and art are two different beasts but, it takes talent and skill to do both. as talented as i was told i was growing up, i still had to work at it allot. it just came easier to me than most i was around. i always wanted to help people learn if they wanted and never talk down to them becasue i was once that nervous kid afraid to ask questions. art should be fun and whether i'm a full blown "artist" is irrelevant to me. i know what i can do and i know what i'd like to do. i could care less what the arrogant art people think. i grew tired of their arrogance in college when i was a fine arts major. let's make this clear that i AM generalizing and DO NOT in any way shape or form think all artistic people are like this. nowhere close. i'm just venting about something i wanted to get off my chest since i was in college almost 15 years ago. i loved my classmates and the love for art they brought from their different backgrounds. they never judged, they were just able to "BE". people try to place opinons as facts in a very subjective art world. i'd like to see a world where people can create more without some art snob huffing and rolling their eyes. grow up.... thanks for listening friends....
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