hello again friends! just a warning, some of my blogs will have some points to them, others will not. this one might be the latter. my job is going as well as ever. being recognized for your skills and talents is wonderful. the important thing is to have a slice of that humble pie once in a while to keep ourselves in check. atleast, that's what i try to do. there is a difference between confidence and cockiness.
there are times in my life where i do feel like an outcast, that i was born in the wrong time period. has that happened to any of you? the world is full of so much crap. violence, abuse (emotional and physical), drugs, adultry, molestation, "war", gas prices, politics, wacky sex acts and organized religion. the lack of standards by people is quite disturbing. as people, we want to "fit in", listen to the cool music, understand the "in" writers and poets. we generally want to be "cool" and just "get it". we want acceptance and sometimes we'll do certain things (some of us will do anything) we normally wouldn't do to feel that brief moment of acceptance. we are a society built on fear and guilt. "you better do this or you'll go to hell" okay, that's too far the other way. i'm sure you've heard that moderation is the key to life. that is so true.
my art has suffered as of late. i'm calling it art again without quotes. i was questioning my own artistic ability in a previous blog but, no more. i was forgetting that art is subjective and screw the rest of them. i want to draw again without fear. like when i was 7 and i just drew what i wanted and never worried about it being good or bad. creation!! the creative process can be the ultimate high. i feel it has the potential to be the closest thing to parenthood if you let it. think about it, building something from scratch and mold it as if you would your child. with your personality, style and charisma. whether you draw or paint or scrapbook, be creative. it's a gift. a wonderful gift. your gift. don't let people cut you down. i get afraid people won't like what i put down on the paper. i've lost what it means to create. i'm working hard to change that and be comfortable in my own skin artisically again.
in my line of work, i've had people get very emotional, in a good way, about my book covers. on the other side, i've had people ask for my resignation to put it politely. the one thing i can come away from that, aside from an ever thickening hide, is the fact that i tried to give them my best. that's all i can ever do. never be upset with good intentions. care about getting better. set the bar higher. want more for yourself. don't be satisfied. but, never forget to enjoy your life. it's great to have goals, but getting lost in them is horrible. that's where the moderation comes in i spoke of previously. i don't get upset with people screwing up, if they really try and care about what they are doing. it's the people that intentionally try to hurt you or mess you up that are jerks.
on to baseball... my beloved st. louis cardinals are officially cleaning house. some of the best players i've enjoyed seeing play over the past several years are gone. david eckstein, jim edmonds and scott rolen to name a few. i have shirts of all 3. i'll still wear them because they are a perminent part of the franchise lore. the 2006 championship team cememented that. from a business standpoint, i see why they've let everyone go. edmonds is a concussion away from retirement and hopefully wil get a job in the booth unless that concussion word happens this next season in san diego. he'll be a natural. scott rolen's shoulder might send him to early retirement and eckstein just signed somewhere else. odd that toronto will have rolen and eckstein in the infield. i think the cards are trying to stock pile draft picks and money so they can get another competitve roster before pujols gets too old. pujols will play into his earlt 40's in my opinion. i feel we are watching the resurrection of an edgar martinez of sorts. pujols just gets better at swinging the bat. he won't have the power at 40 that he does now, nor will he be able to hit like tony gwynn but, i could still see him a tough out DH down the road for a contender. maybe get him another ring while he's at it. he's 28 and already had a shot a 2 rings and has won one. wait-n-see.
thanks again for listening... err. reading... more later....
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