getting there ever so slowly....

Hello Friends! i’ve discovered that i cannot sleep. i’ve decided to make (good?) use of this time and write an overdue blog. Ramblings in the wee hours of the morning. nothing more. Susan has moved down to spencer with me so she can start her new job at authorhouse as a children’s book illustrator. as one creative professional to another, i’m so proud of her. it’s quite an accomplishment when you can do something you like to do for a living. not many people can say that. we’ve both worked crappy, blue collar jobs to get to this point which i feel helps us appreciate where we are at and to not take things for granted. also, susan has moved down here so we can start our new life together. it was hard living at each other’s houses through the week which we were an hour apart. saturday will be 5 months and it’s been an amazing ride. i’ve never found someone who has completed me in so many ways. it’s easy to get insecure about yourself as a person when you’re around such a wonderful person. "Why am I the fortunate one?" "what makes ME wondeful to her?" I’m a perfectionist anyway. i want to be number one at everything. but, i can’t be. none of us can. at the end of the day we’re all just looking to see where we fit in and if it makes us comfortable. perfectionists have a hard time with such things. i feel we all are striving for that perfection at times. some more than others. we all want to be the beautiful/handsome person in the tabloids. the talented painter, musician, athlete, comedian, writer, etc... we want to be the number one person in someone’s life. am i Johnny Depp? Matthew Maconahay? Lewis Black? Dane Cook? Monet? Norman Rockwell? LeBron James? oh god no... but, it’s nice to know we fit in somewhere. all i know for sure is that there was a day not that long ago that i said i would probably not get married again. i’ve changed my mind and believe i’ve found a partner in every sense of the word to grow old with and raise a family together.

i’m rambling a bit, but i warned you. blogs are great because i can rant and rant and not worry that much about it. that’s what you’re supposed to do on these things. well, enough rambling. i believe i’ll try to continue my slumber... farewell friends!