Where is the EXACT moment?

Where is the EXACT moment? The Exact moment where your time is starting to pass you by and “potential” is running out. Without realizing it, you feel as if you are now the spectator. It turns out we have several different instances of similar realizations in our life. The moment where you realize that you are about where you are going to be in life and the big dreams are meant for someone else and you’re just to far behind. Is it squandered opportunities or part of our ultimate life path? You’re struggling to find your purpose or at least your place in life. It’s a funny thing when finally reality and your day dreams collide. The real test we all face. The difference between us all is how we deal with it. Instead of true “success” I think what we are really searching for is contentment. It doesn’t matter what we’re happy about as long as we’re happy. Happiness is strictly defined by the person not the masses. We tend to forget that. We tend to measure success by someone else’s reaction. I find myself envying people not so much for their success but, their happiness. They are happy with their success that they have defined which, is the true meaning of inner peace.

Sadly, the biggest success is defined by who has the biggest audience. This can be misleading and unfair. We live in a world that puts reality TV “stars” up higher on the food chain than a teacher for special needs children or a firefighter or member of our military. Our perception of success is skewed from our very first days. Some of us figure it out, some of us will continue to search and the rest of us will never find it. We struggle with definitions of ourselves in society. What we are really looking for is to have an inner peace with who we are and our connection with everything else. My skewed idea of success and the reality of it collide on a daily basis.

We’ve all accepted awards and accolades with the best of them behind shower curtains or given wonderful speeches to our steering wheel. There is a peak of acceptance within us. Once we’ve reached it, we look in three directions: down, straight ahead and up. Sadly, we judge our self worth on the direction with the least amount of letters. We obsess over how other people are climbing through life. We pay to much attention to the peak of the mountain but, the true beauty is in the journey.

As for the peak, here’s to hoping I keep climbing and never find it….