reflections....

we all wait for that day... the day where we will turn the corner and everything will change for the better. you'll quit smoking, start that diet, start working out, stick to a budget....etc. but, what i've discovered is that we don't know if that first day of the rest of our lives is what it is until we reflect and look back. we wake up with good intentions but we never know if something has stuck and we've made a change for the better until we look back. we're all ready to quit smoking right in the middle of that cigarette for example. ofcoarse you're ready to quit. you just got your nicotine fix for the moment. the real strength comes when you want a cigarrete and you tell your body no. same thing with food, exercise or whatever goal you have. self discipline. we're all just trying to beat the surgeon general's warning stat. nothing is gauranteed. you can have a guy that has never touched a cigarette and drop over dead while running his marathon and have a 85 year old woman who chain smokes, never have a problem. that's where fate comes in for me. we go when we are supposed to go. life really is too short so, live life how you want. the one thing we do have control over is the quality of life we can have while we're here.